So sudden it was
That so many left
Without even a goodbye,
Leaving voids
Not to be filled
By anything around.
Young or old, family or friend-
Into the sunset they walked.
And I was bereft, shedding tears
And dreaming dreams
That never happened
Or will never happen,
Seeking for a presence,
Reaching out
For what wasn’t there.
Crowds came in and out
Filling gaps in life,
But no one filled
The void in my heart.
More and more, I wallowed;
Loneliness knocked at the door.
I chose to let it in
And it clenched my head;
Pain entered without a welcome!
I groped in vagueness,
But found no hold.
I kept slipping
Into the vortex of grief.
But gentle memories
Tugged with insistent affection
And kept the edge of sadness
Stay open for the head to stay up
Without sinking into wild despair.
RosyView 
Such a sad post. I hope that grandchildren have been able to lift your spirits as it sounds as if you need a lift. We just returned from our journey to CA and back with our new Dodge Ram van that was converted to a pop top in Sabastopol (near San Fransisco) Flew out April 7, visited Paul’s sister Carol in Placerville (near Sacramento) for a few days. Left CA on Friday , April 11 to drive back home. Visited places in Utah, Wyomming, Nebraska on the way. Stayed in Joliet, Illinois for a couple of days. Went into Chicago on the Metro on Sat and then had Easter dinner with my cousin Charlene who lives in Shorewood, near Joilet. Left there on Monday and drove home. Got here in time to go to DMV to renew registration on VW! Drove to Schenectady yesterday and got the VW van which now has a new transmission so we plan to sell it. Do you know anyone who wants to buy a 1995 VW Vanagon?? Back to all the yard work, house chores etc. Liz
Some moments are like this.
Of course I remember.