Grief is ruthless,
Taunting till one grips it!
Shed or unshed,
Tears tried in vain
To wash away the grief
That happened suddenly
And surprisingly.
Whether affecting slowly
Or striking with lightning speed,
One is never ready
To withstand the onslaughts,
The ever widening eddies!
Where is the foothold
To stop the sinking,
The infinite whirl
That is relentless
And giddying?
Try this, try that;
Talk, walk, do something.
Yet, there is no end
To this maddening swirl,
The ever widening whirl of grief.
But, there has to be a pause.
A sudden brake
Or a slow lowering pedal
That comes to complete stop
To the maddening depth
That sucks one in,
Leaving only dry leaves
Of plausible memories.
Is there a hand reaching down
Or a branch within grasp?
Does this have to be eternal?
Reach out for someone,
For a consoling gesture,
Or a shoulder to cry on.
It is always an extrovert
Who endures quietly,
The silent grief
Unperceived by the world,
However excruciating !
Is there anyone out there?
Is that a cry in the wilderness,
A cry that wafts with the breeze
That waltzes by, unnoticed?
Is there a Providence
To pull one out of this abyss?
Or reach in
To the core of entity
To find oneself
To bear the grief
That almost toppled
The very existence.
So moving. Grief does not pass, and you have expressed the feeling so well that just keeps popping up sometimes unexpectedly despite what we do to try to push it away or at least into the background. As I think of your loss, I also think of Catherine who has is marking just one year since she lost Michael. LIz
Yes. It is always there.